Expressions...

At this point it's not secret that I like to write. At an early age, I began writing poems as a way to express my inner thoughts, things I couldn't even share in the letters I would write to friends. A couple of my poems got me acknowledged in my APAC English class (6th grade lol). My teacher once told me that one poem was so deep that she wondered where I pulled it from lol. This post is just me sharing a few poems from my phone. Some were inspired by certain personal situations while others could just be something I was told about and got inspiration from. Either way, I hope you enjoy them! 

This part ‼️❣️ Getting back into the swing of things before you interrupted me Made everything else be still while I gave you my attention Hitting the play button and sayin to hell wit it So tired of my feelings being pushed to the side Only to be picked up when you want to pick or choose The topic of conversation so it can suit you Never listening to what I actually say or show you Just continuing to use the parts of me that you want to Use, or abuse Not physically but emotionally I'm drained Hitting it from the back I feel less pain Flat on the stomach just gasping for air Looking back at you biting my lip while you pulling my hair The satisfaction of that after just yelling & screaming Different vibes, different sides of each other that we didn't wanna see Avoiding the confrontation to avoid losing me And me avoiding the loss of you But I'm already out

Grabbing a warm towel to wipe you down Kisses to remind me of what moments have passed but yelling at you fuck you, kiss my ass I hate you, I lie & say Because I love you more today than I did yesterday But the love I want I give away 

Makes me want to hate you for me letting love you in the first place Ion want it But I do Ion like it,  I love it I hate you Sometimes But most times, I love you This part...  🙄

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Alone 🌛

When I'm alone I cry Tears from the day built up inside See, during the day I wear this smile... To mask the tears that are fightin to come out Inside I'm filled with madness & sadness, thoughts that haunt me from the feelings I can't show But late at night, I let the tears flow They come right on time, As my head meets the pillow case They accompany me to sleep, Removing a little pain as the run down my cheek I'm alone, so I think.. so many thoughts in so little time Thoughts of him, thoughts of her, taking over my mind Go away, remove these thoughts from me please God 🙏🏽 I cry so hard my head starts to throb My last energy of the day, used to cry from down deep Lack of energy from the tears cuddles me to sleep I fall asleep with my tears It's only been a few days, so the pain is still new Although I removed all pictures, I can still see you Smiling as you kiss me, hugging me, saying you miss me Your voice so loud and familiar in my head I have to let this go, I have to let it be And one day I will, Finally accept, that you weren't meant for me  

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Same wave 🌊 Took years to get here But I think I’m in a better place Compared to where I was, I know I’ve been covered by grace I stepped to the left, when things didn’t seem to go right May have been my best move, It was the one that changed my life, but it was a change I tried to fight So many unknowns, About us but more about me Figuring myself out, Who I am and what I want to be Making a list Of everything I want to do My dreams, my goals, and comparing the two How will I accomplish this? Can I really do it on my own Self doubt tried to step in, but that’s where I left it, alone I’m elevating myself, experiencing the newer things Putting on my seatbelt for the ride life is about to bring I know it’s going to get better, Some how and some way, Until I reach the next one, I’ll be riding on this same wave 🌊  

-Honestly,

MARY