What am I doooing?!

Have you ever just stopped for a minute or two and had to have a convo with yourself?! I know I can’t be the only one who has had to do this lol maybe a time or two. But I found myself doing this recently. Yall, I have to admit that I have not been blogging like I want to. I honestly have two post sitting in drafts that were supposed to go up in December smh 🤦🏽‍♀️. I feel horrible that I didn’t do them. The other day while lying in bed getting ready to write a new post, I saw the drafts and was like wth am I doing?! Why did I start those and stop?! Why didn’t I push through and get them scheduled to post for the days I wanted them to go live.

(Here they are 🤦🏽‍♀️😩 January 3rd is the day I took the screenshot. I went into them both wondering why I never posted smh) 

I stopped and had that talk with myself & I realized my procrastination level is at an all time high. I want to stop putting things off! Especially things that are important to me, like this blog. I’ve been trying to get better with my planner and scheduling things and time slots for certain task. I just need to get better with my time management period. I have this chore chart that I made for the kids and I decided to make me one too and to have them hold me accountable. We are looking to get a pet dog soon and before we do, I think we need to prepare ourselves. I can admit that I thought I was truly ready, but I’m not sure. I know a dog is like having another child but I believe if we work together as a team we can do it. 

I saw that I’ve been off my game for a second now and I’m ready to change that. 2018 is going to be a great year for me. I’m claiming that. I’m going to get better with myself, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.   I’m also going to get better with my finances so I can save more. I save some now but not as much as I would like. I also just want to live my best life. I’m planning to tackle some things on my bucket list. Just to share a few with you all: 

BUCKET LIST 2018

• Take a trip to Chicago to see wait wait don’t tell me 

• Take a train 

• Buy/ invest in stock

• Read 3 full books (or more) 

• Complete another 30 day challenge 

• Become steady (consistent) with blog post

• Get a gun for the house

• Take a yoga class (at least one)

• Help with charity / community event

I have many more things on the list but those are the top. I just want to do more things for me. It’s not like I haven’t been doing things I want, but this year is going to be about me embracing new things about myself. I want to step out of my comfort zone and really rediscover some things. 

Did you all make New Years resolutions? If so what are they? If not, what else do you do instead? Share with me! I’m open to hear it all!

Until next time! 

Honestly, 

MARY